Cancer Smancer


okay. So I went and saw the oncologist today. I have a rare form of lymphoma(non-Hodgkin’s, a hybrid of two other types of lymphoma) that usually is found in men who are HIV+:plasmablastic  lymphoma. I have always tested negative, but never have had a blood test for it.

The test, to find out what stage it is and where it is, cost over $30,000 alone. That does not include the chemo, EPOCH, that they want to put me on which would consist of being admitted to the hospital for five days , for 21 months, and have it pumped through me daily for that period.  I am sure there are possible programs and assistance I could get, but I have seen people such as myself, with my social and economical standing in the system, and it is not good.

It just is more stress to be added on top of enough stress. The waiting, the wandering if I am approved or accepted, the countless personalities(some I am sure are not to pleasant) and the stress of it all, my poor mother and husband and I can not take anymore stress.

I have decided how ever long I have left I am going to rock out with my blazing light of divine joy and love. I have a purpose to fulfill here on this earth. The writing I have produced thus far, the books I am to publish within this year, and the art I am creating as we speak is meant to inspire someone or someone’s down the road. If I am not to complete my task they may not achieve the greatness they are destined for. I am here to inspire, to educate, to prepare, to enlighten, and to bring such joy to the world.

I will do what the divine light has set me forth on this planet to do. So be it.

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“Prediction Addiction”  by J. C. Crider©2013    AVAILABLE NOW!!!!! *TY TO ALL SUPPORTERS,FANS,AND THE LIKE

Second Poetry Book

“Awakened, Healing, Visions from the Unknown”  by J. C. Crider©2013    AVAILABLE NOW!!!!!!!!!!

Third Poetry Book

“Stitches of Poetry: Volume 1” by J.C. Crider©2013    AVAILABLE NOW!!!!!!!!!!

“Stitches of Poetry: Volume 2” By J.C. Crider AVAILABLE NOW!!!!!

 

So these are all of my self published books of poetry. Everything I have created, except for the covers. But I hope you take the opportunity to purchase one. If you do please feel free to let me know what you think.

Writing a book is not as easy as I thought!


About eight years ago I decided, thanks to my amazing partner, to publish the massive amount of poetry I had written over the years; as well as begin working on my first piece of fiction(a story based upon my life). It was not until two years ago that I finally published three poetry books, with three more ready for editing. It has been extremely difficult writing my life story.

After working in New Orleans, on the infamous Bourbon Street, at a restaurant for a year and enduring a myriad of customer service draining moments, I had to come back to my hometown. My grandfather also passed away. However, upon return I experienced three more jobs in the restaurant industry. My customer service spirit has been damaged and thus making it difficult to be in public. I have been scorned by so many people in the past then, to be scorned by the very people I worked for and desired nothing more than their happiness and pleasure. All this has made writing extremely difficult.

However with the recent, unexpected emotions , my grandmother being diagnosed with cancer, and the responsibility of caring for the home I was raised in, the gates have been opened. I do not know what this means or for how long the desire,the fire within, will burn. But, I hope you ride along with me each day and see where this new journey takes me.

Thank you for taking time out of your day to share in my experience.

Peace, Light, and Love

Diana Jay Crider

If you would like to check out one of my poetry books here they are

Predicted Addiction

Stitches of Poetry:Volume 1

Awakened, Healing, Visions from the Unknown

It will get better!


Struggling to find my voice, still, at the age of 38. I wonder will I ever find my voice. It is there I feel its presence, but somehow in the translation of life it has gotten lost. I have published three poetry books, self published that is. I have only sold two copies. Proof that I have not put the effort into selling them. However, in my defense depression was in control here recently. My autobiography/non-fiction is still a work in progress, but I am closer to finishing than I was a month ago, which there is something to say for that; AWESOME! I hope everyone is hanging in there. Found a way to make some steady income and am excited for the opportunity. I will try and keep you, my faithful readers, up to date. It has been chaotic, to say the least, in my ho usehold and I can only hope that somehow the seasons to come will bring some resolution and peace.

Peace, Light, and Love

Two Copies Sold…excitement can not be contained!


Just found out today that two copies of my first book, “Prediction Addiction, ” have sold. Super excited. My excitement is overflowing at this moment. Only a billion more to go, universe willing. For those who like a copy please click the link below

“Prediction Addiction”

Also in other news, the job fell through. Super bummed. But, on the flip side, my second book “Awakened, Healing, Visions from the Unknown” comes out tomorrow. A nice balance wouldn’t you say.

Much Peace, Light, and Love to you and yours.

J. C. Crider “Jay”