when it pours it pours

Found out last week my grandmothers colon cancer is back and it has spread to her stomach and her lungs. She started a new round of chemo, stronger, Monday; the past two days she has been so sick(she is 85). Recently found out my mother has a heart murmur and has had a mild stroke and a heart attack within the past year. I go for my biopsy results for the growths in my mouth tomorrow; praying it is not cancer. because if so that will make three of us(my husband, my grandmother, and I) who have it. I hope not. I do not know what the future holds for me family but it does not look good. We do not have nice things and we do not want nice things, but what we have we are in jeopardy of losing it. Because of the medical bills between my mother, my husband, and I we are two months behind on the house mortgage and two months behind on the utilities. Everything is falling apart. I am seeking help from multiple sources and as of right now, NOTHING! I have started a go fund me page and it has been up almost a month and nothing. If it was not for two of my dear old friends the cable would have been shut off sooner and we would have gone without food. Yes, I know churches and food banks offer free food, but my family and I need nutritious foods(not breads, meats, or canned veggies). Fresh vegetables, nuts, and grains is what we need. It is cheaper to eat unhealthy than it is to eat healthy(which makes no sense to me; makes me believe our country is out to kill us).

Well that about sums it up.

AS in my previous post. I am at a loss, as to, what to do now.


Bacon Wrapped Memories

Pork loin roast
Wrapped in bacon
Saturates the air
Bringing forth
Tucked away
In its goodness.
Eating green beans
From grannies garden
As bacon sizzled
And fresh biscuit aroma
Waffed through the air.
A circle of matriarchs
Gaggled as preparations
For the afternoon feast
Fueled their tales and gossip.
Those sweet stills from the past
Brighten the darkness
That attempts to corrupt.
Those sweet smells
Piercing the air
Reminding me of who
Shatters those fears
Those doubts
Bringing forth
Every moment
That has shaped
My heart
My mind
But not taking away from
The maddness that
Is me
But adding
To the uniqueness
Of my being.
Becoming fortified
By the shackels
Of the past.

The end of the day and as promised, Butterscotch Caramel Cheesecake is here

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I am about to sit down with my wonderful other half and watch some “Grimm” and “Constantine” while enjoying this fine product. I am super proud of the final product.

The dust grows steadily!

With Answers comes solutions, however, we may not like them.

I am super happy to be back blogging.

Look forward to our next encounter.

Until we next rise

Have a glorious night!

– D.J.

Peace, Light & Love

“Hells Kitchen,” Seven Chefs Left


Enjoying “Hells Kitchen” on Fox with my husband. The yard was cleaned earlier in preparation for Saturday’s yard sale. Husband watched YouTube all day and mom worked; time to unwind and what better way than with Gordon Ramsay. He, in my opinion, is the best Chef. I would jump at the opportunity to have him as a mentor. This episode is my favorite, the blind taste test. Unfortunately, if I can not stop smoking,  I will loose mine. The show is excellent. The challenges are well though out. I enjoy watching how Gordon transforms people. My husband have seen a person change on camera. The change Ramsay brings forth in many individuals is so powerful you can see a physical change in the person.

English: Gordon Ramsay in 2010.
English: Gordon Ramsay in 2010. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Speaking about change, I am looking forward to it being just my mom, my husband, and I living here. Her tenant will be moving Monday. She has been saying she was going to move since September. My mom really did not realize what she was getting herself into. She is a very religious woman and believes you help others out, but she was not prepared for what happens when those people abuse, take advantage of, and take for granted the kindness you provide. Her and dad divorced almost six years ago and in my opinion she is still in a fragile state. Her and my father married when she was eighteen and for thirty seven years all she knew was life with him and before that it was her life with her parents. So in reality these years, since dad left, have been the first time in her life she has been on her own.

Well the Show is almost over, it is a two part episode; part tonight and the second part another night. It is getting down to the wire  before the chefs transition into the black jackets. I am rooting for Cindy to beat Jon. Who are you rooting for?

Mother’s Day Lunch, A Success!

I know I am late on getting the details on the Mother’s Day lunch  I whipped up for my Grandmother and my Mom. It was a success. I made chicken salad wraps; baked chicken and onions(shredded), finely diced celery, crispy bacon bits, lettuce, diced tomatoes, and shredded Swiss cheese. Accompanied by a load potato salad heart; boiled potatoes(drained of course), 1/2 cup of light blue plate mayo, crispy bacon bits, three boiled and diced eggs, finely diced celery, and 1/3 of ranch dressing(could use sour cream).

My mother absolutely loved, except I got carried away and when I was adding salt to the chicken salad, did not realize that it was set on the wrong dispenser and dumped the salt in. Had to scoop it out and safe as much as possible. It was a tad salty. But edible and amazingly delicious. The potato salad, in my opinion, was perfect.

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Keeping the Spirit, Inside, Alive

So Mother’s day went off with out a hitch. My Grandmother was surprised when my mom and I showed up for church and they both enjoyed the lunch. Do not worry I will not disappoint, I will post the recipe and pictures tomorrow. I over worked an already injured shoulder this last weekend. I have been in so much pain these past two days. But, not my focus for this post. I wanted to touch base with all my readers and followers, the sweeps is still on and the PTC’s are still working. About to cash out on two of them; first of June.

This shoulder situation has put a damper on my job hunt, however light it was. I am in desperate need of employment. My husband and I really want to move to Washington State, Spokane or another city. Legal Same sex Marriage and Legal Weed, something he needs for the cancer and something I need for the crazy. Well my shoulder has started hurting again. I hope you all had a lovely Mother’s Day, for those that are not with us anymore, let there memory continue to sing in your heart.

Peace, Light, and Love

*added while watching “Dish Nation” and other fine pieces of entertainment before attempting to finally get some sleep. Since I awoke at ten in the morning Monday, I have had a total of three hours of sleep. Last time I went that long before sleeping, I was having fun. This is far from fun. My wonderful husband, even though he suffers with Wisdom teeth pain and the caner, has been so attentive.
I commend Angelina Jolie for her decision to prevent herself from Breast Cancer. Been stuck in the recliner watching way to much Television these three weeks. Well I am calling it a night for real this time. Ya’ll can thank my hubby for the post. I reminded me that when you start developing fans and readers, you must keep their hunger, for your words, satisfied.
Again, good night, Pleasant Dreams.