Greetings, my name is Jay. I have known since my earliest memory of four and half years of age that I am in fact a female not a male. I have struggled with this knowledge for my entire life. Now, at the age of 40, I feel the issue has gone unattended to, for far to long. The time has come to strip away the male ideology I was trained/programmed to be and finally be that feminine presence that lies buried beneath.
It has been almost a month since my grandmother started her chemo treatments; so far, so good. However, my mother is going through a process in a mother/child relationship, which she really should have gone through in her late teens and twenties. It is interesting to watch something you have already gone through play out before your very own eyes.
I love my mom and my grandmother, without them I would not be here today.
Check out the lunch
it was a delight to lift these ladies up in appreciation and honor their lives.
The day is almost done. I steadily pounded the keys a majority of the day working on Amazon Mechanical Turk assignments. I am fearful that we will be homeless here soon and all will end badly. Why, you may ask, is because my mother has had to move in with my grandmother(whom was recently diagnosed with stage 3, level c colon cancer which has spread to her lymph nodes)We are at the tale end of our food, I have barely any gas in the van, I have know idea how in the world I am going to save my moms house; shelter and feed my partner and I; and somehow get medical/dental/vision insurance so we can get some care.My partner(whom also has cancer) got some help in New Orleans, but he has become so despondent and tired of the run around he has pretty much given up.
However, I come to my wonderful audience to thank you all for continued encouragements, retweeting my tweets, and sharing on Facebook. I have now reached 8 subscribers on My YouTube channel, Gendermoon. Slowly but surely.
Be safe out there, KNOW YOUR LIMITS folks.
Peace, Light, and Love
About eight years ago I decided, thanks to my amazing partner, to publish the massive amount of poetry I had written over the years; as well as begin working on my first piece of fiction(a story based upon my life). It was not until two years ago that I finally published three poetry books, with three more ready for editing. It has been extremely difficult writing my life story.
After working in New Orleans, on the infamous Bourbon Street, at a restaurant for a year and enduring a myriad of customer service draining moments, I had to come back to my hometown. My grandfather also passed away. However, upon return I experienced three more jobs in the restaurant industry. My customer service spirit has been damaged and thus making it difficult to be in public. I have been scorned by so many people in the past then, to be scorned by the very people I worked for and desired nothing more than their happiness and pleasure. All this has made writing extremely difficult.
However with the recent, unexpected emotions , my grandmother being diagnosed with cancer, and the responsibility of caring for the home I was raised in, the gates have been opened. I do not know what this means or for how long the desire,the fire within, will burn. But, I hope you ride along with me each day and see where this new journey takes me.
Thank you for taking time out of your day to share in my experience.
Peace, Light, and Love
Diana Jay Crider
If you would like to check out one of my poetry books here they are
Unexpected emotions, like a Tornado, come out of no where. My life has been a rollercoaster of emotions; people coming and going.
I have made many mistakes in the past. I have sought forgiveness from not only myself, but all those that I have hurt along the way. Recently I sought out an old friend from High School. I had over the years looked for this person and now twenty years later I found them. Out of no where these unresolved emotions splurge forth.
Emotions are weird like that. One minute you could be happy has lark and ten minutes later Satan himself.
Evening everyone. It will be a week tomorrow that I have vlogged.
The channel I started on YouTube, GenderMoon, has been revamped. Unfortunately I did not like the feel of “The Sunday Evening report at 11:11 with Gina Taye,” but in its place I bring you my vlog, poetry readings, sissy the cat, and starting this Sunday at 11pm eastern, “Crashing of the Mind with D.J. Crider” which will certain solely around creativity and its many forms. Hope you can make it, the show will be Live, on YouTube. Click on the link below to find out more and if you like subscribe.
Hope everyone is well
Peace, Light, and Love
D.J. Crider( and I am sticking with this name btw people)
I am about to sit down with my wonderful other half and watch some “Grimm” and “Constantine” while enjoying this fine product. I am super proud of the final product.
The dust grows steadily!
With Answers comes solutions, however, we may not like them.
I am super happy to be back blogging.
Look forward to our next encounter.
Until we next rise
Have a glorious night!
Peace, Light & Love